hellohs hellohs .

yesterday , went to jurong to watch abang fezi and temanteman play takraw . hahahs . that tuut was there too , and abang PAITAO was there too . hahahs . PEE - AAA - AII - TEEE - AAA-OHHH ! PAITAO ! hahahas .

but i did enjoy most when we ran around , giving people the fake lizards and cockroach . hahahs . kakak ayuu ! jom gi kedai kopi , gy toilet . ahahhas . sanggup tau kiter , gi kedai kopi just for going toilet , umah abang fezi tak nak tau . nak kedai kopi jugak . and yeahs , kat situ banyak TIKUS ! eeeeeeeeeew~ . hahahs . anyway , thats all .

hellohs people ! hahas .

so missing N1'09 ! ughs ! okayhs . noone retained . gooooooooood ! which brought my smile back to my morning . anyway , im so gonna miss you all eyhs !

and yeahs , QIQI'S back . and she's superhh angry with me for not taking care of my relationship carefully . but i just nodded my head . buat bodoh lahs . now she wants me too post at my blog , telling my true feelings about him . WTF ? and i said this to her , kau step die bace jek kalau aku post .
and she was like , bingitbingit sendiri , why i break with him . eyhs qiqi , comeon lahs , this thing was like 4 months already siak . semuer orang macam biase , asal kau like over-reacting . bodoh lahs . and now , i argueing with her . and she nearly chatted with fyiee just now , cause he was online . wtf kan ? i nose kan ?

and yeahs , arif , kau peyh penknife was like with me taus . hahahas . kau pahampaham jek lahs . hahahs . aku sumpah rindu kau , panjangg ! hahhahahas . eyhs , kiter jiwer single uhks . hahahs .

i miss N1'09 !
shit , thanks to qiqi , im lke missing fyiee deeply inside , and tear rolled down my cheecks . baby i miss you !

hi .
woke up feeling unusual . sadly , i got this feeling saying that im replaced . be it from babygirl , sister , daughter , and person . and so i did check tagged , facebook , friendster . well facebook has the most answer . cant deny that im weeping now , silent painfull heartache , which im facing now . hurt . fedup . sucked . fucked up . everything in a sec . FUCK . naaaahs , no longer attached , i guess . but , for all i know , i changed , and tend to get so fucking emotional over something small .

and i dont want to share my mind or anything to anyone anymore . thanks for replacing . have fun , with your future replacee . and , how much i fought with you , how much u hurted my feelings , how much u hurted me through your words , how much i hate you or how much u hurted you , u hated me , never it crossed in my mind that i want a replacement . cause i know people are inperfect , and think you're still the best . and i never go with anyone when you aint around . setia ? so much for your setia pade satu eyhs . and i think u know u who are . and i'll pay .

babys !

today nunu and arif and suzy went to my crib . watched TAKEN . again , i know . anyway , daniel , my brother like raped arif . nose kan ? lol . and im attached . to my one and only * ehems * . hahas . okayhs . ilovehim . i nose kan ?

firstly , abang ajai ! adek maseyh majok ngan abang uhks . hahhahaha . nose ! promoted . people , im sorry . i dont know , why i have been very sensitive these days . sheeesh . anyway . i missed being loved , worried for , texted and called , teased at , etc . i hate my current life .

yeahs , babygirl wasnt in school for the last two days . something happened to her great-great-grandfather . nose . cant deny missing her though . working at sentosa next friday , which is a little sickening cause i didnt know that AFAI , si pukimak tu , work there . knncb . go die lahs he . anyway , justin , as promised ?

sorry for the lack of update . was BUSY M-I-A-ing .

sheeeesh . firstly , i've been with KakEffa , AbangFezi & Friends , AbangAjai and not forgetting , NunuBbygirl && SuzyDearest. cant deny that they have been there for me when i needed them , much less like brother-sister-lovee . babys , ilovekorang manymany uhks . have been thinking and thinking throughout the days , and advises given , i think i should let go of the past . cause , like they said , whats the use of me loving him , when he dont even single fucking care ? oh noseeeeeeeee , in a great-severe-dilemma ! oh damn , i want him , but yet i have to let go of him . why nose , why ? ughs .

people , if u know that someone loves u deeply , do not reject them , cause , both guys and girls have feelings . and you should be lucky that they love you alot . they might be heartbroken . like i am now . so , dont contact me at my phone now , cause i purposely get rid of it . MIA-ing .

Labels: baby, im trying my best to forget you .

heyhs . its acap people .

he ran away from home . and he's now at bukitbatok . sadly , he ticked me off when i need a listening ear . and now im in need of one . he fought through msn . like hell .

and acap . whatever happen , be it we fought , aku tak akan matikan sedare sendiri aku uhk . aku tak akan panggil aku peyh budakbudak pon nak rembat kau . tak terlintas dalam otak aku sia . aku paham uhk kau ader matae , tapi takmo tinggalkan keluarga kau ngan sedare kau untuk matae uhks . favour uhks . everytime , kau need a listening ear , at anytime pon , selame ni , sape sanggup bangun tido , cuci muke , beros gigi untuk dengar kau peyh cerita ? sape sanggup turun hougang naek cab , temankan kau nanges kat pondok ? sape pujuk kau ? sape sapu tahi kau ? i never even ask for anything in return . takpek uhk acap , aku dah biase uhk kene gyni punye care . takecare uhk . aku tetap tak akan mati kan sedare darah danging aku sendiri .

and seriously , i need someone to talk to , and i need fyiee .

Labels: forgive me about tuesday's case . im sorry . talk tome, please .

heyhs , the song , Tak Ku Sangka Tak Ku Duga , means a lot to me . its the same thing , as what as im going through now , and what im thinking now . cant deny that tears rolled down my cheecks when i hear this song , while reading the saved messages of his .

here is few of them ,

• its actually for QIQI : Aku jatuh cinta dgn ko..ouh tu sudah tak bleh..aku sygkn tiara srg je!!
• happie 1 month aniversary bby!!
• btw u cn kol me jap..rindu dgn suara u..
• u r soo careless tau b..mcm gini u bleh lose me..seh..
• wats yrs is mine..so they wan yr blood means tat they wan my blood too...
• murnin b!!i'm goin off nw..tc of yrself..luv u lots!!jgn lupe mkn!! and ouh ya ! yr medcine..mkn jugak..and always remember this..The hardest words to say to you is, i have to leave u..and the sweetest words to say to u is, I LOVE U!!LOVE U LOTS!! GOIN TO MISS U LOTS..TC!!

Labels: i need u back in ly life . i do .

nothing can describe my happiness when he's back . its like a heaven thingything .
imagine , im like waiting outside 7-11 [ itsastore&more ] , talking to bbyg , when this little sunshine of mine text me , im back from brunei ! i cant stop blushing and smiling , seriously . actually , i was about to jiwangjiwang . then he texted , tros hilang jiwang jady hyper ! cool kan ? but later , something happened . regretted it . fyiee , im sorry . seriously , im sorry , and my friend should have not said like that . im sorry . sorry , please ? and im still missing you . and lastly ,

hellohs .
okayhs ,
HE'S coming home soon . my mood like fade away after something happened . and i wouldnt want to tell anybody about this . its a pathetic life im leading . after one , another comes in . this aint a problem , y'know . mummy doesnt even know about this , only me , and acap know about this . should i , or should i not ? and for all i know , im this and that .

and i got into another case . IO Saiful talked to me , and i just listened . for all i know , i yes-no-okayhs type when he talks to me . mummy was happy , i guess . since she wanted it so badly . but too bad , her fcking plan failed . thanks to one fucking guy , who made stories about me , and made mummy believe him , and here i am . and thanks PakSu and MakSu . you've been a great help . so , here i am , staying put at his' place . babygirl , mane promise ? help me luhks , im not at home . and , dorang peyh anak sedare hot sia , and that's for nunu or aiai . im sticking to one . aink .

and yeahs , suzy . i pity her a lot . on her 7 months anni morning , she cried a lot . sad kan ? but this aint nizar's fault uhks . this is all because of stupid jasman . desperate punyah budak . damn him uhks . suzy , cheer up . you've been strong for the past few months . from march till october . surely nothing can happen . just try start smiling , as usual . and im so envy of you . last long aites . and you know what i want . :DDDD

still counting down , again .
3 more days , 72 more hours , 4320 more minutes , 259 200 more seconds to go !
yaaaay .
but seriously , im scared . someone asked me ,


but seriously , what if he does ? ohh-emm-gee . shit uhks . anyway , im just little extra confident . nunuuuuuuuu ! i miss him badly . i want him back .

still counting down .
seriously , feels like i want to be the first he meets , or call or text .
4 more days , 96 more hours , 5760 more minutes , 345 600 more seconds .
yay , its decreasing !

eyhs eyhs korang ! counting down niehs !
somebody very important coming back .
14 eyhs . seriously . excited nak mampos .
eyhs , geram nyerhs .
five more days , 120 more hours , 7200 more minutes , 432 000 more seconds .

Labels: cepat luhks balek b

hellohs . suzaay helped me edit my skin blog , bukan taktahu , malaaaaaas !
went out . jumpe ifaaaaaah . hahas . fairuz ohh fairuz . aku nak beli slipon yang ade mulot uhks . seriously , tenok dorang ade mataer jealous sia member . sheeeeeeeesh . hahas . and sorry for the not-always-updating blog . lately , busy and swineee . hehs . and that's acap , he's my cousin . aaaaaaaiinkk . he rocks ! and acap , takmo sad . try retaking your NLVL science paper 1 . i wish you all the best , aite ? amin . see , your cousin very the good one horhs .

hellohs .

went out raye todaay . with them again . quite fun . seriously , i was jealous .
got three couple and coming-soon-official couple together . and i missed * you-know-who * . babygirl wasnt around i was like , missed her . ALOT ! okayhs . went my house at 12.15 am . yeahs . murni , me , ifwat and arif . nasya got to go already , when we are already in the cab on my way homee . ifwat send her off , we waited in the cab . reached my house , and something fun happened . took a video of it . hahas . the MELATAAHS ! hahas . anyway . theres some photo of us . and the video ? cannot post it here . if you want , i can send it to you . hahas .